July, shortly after diagnosis/November, one month post-repair

This year I am thankful for so many things that no matter how many things I name here, there will be just as many, if not more that go unnamed. But here are a few anyway…

I am thankful for that precious baby up there, that we decided to have another baby a decade after our last, that we didn’t let K’s medical needs keep us from taking a leap, that she has been such a perfect addition to our crazy family.

I am thankful for her safe and gentle birth.

I am thankful for the early months of endless nursing. While we were in it, it seemed never ending, but it was such a short and precious time in retrospect and I miss it.

I am thankful that our pediatrician detected her murmur and sent us for an echo.

I am thankful for echocardiograms and EKGs and x-rays and labs (even though we hate them) and all kinds of medical technology.

I am thankful for doctors and nurses.

I am thankful that we live near one of the top hospitals for pediatric cardiology.

I am thankful for the medications that kept her alive while we waited on surgery and carried her through surgery and recovery.

I am thankful that my body has been able to provide milk for her for 7 months and counting, even if I did have to give up dairy and I totally hate pumping. Hate. Pumping.

I am thankful for my stupid fancy pump and the ability to rent it anyway.

I am thankful for Jenn, our precious milk donor, who also willingly gave up dairy for people she had never met to help provide milk for our sweet baby. Who does that mean? Someone awesome, that’s who.

I am thankful for elemental formula which has also contributed to her growth. Yay, science.

I am thankful for blood donors.

I am thankful that we live in such a magical time that people were able to stop my baby’s tiny heart and open it up and put it back together and then bring her back to life. Real magic.

I am thankful that we are on the other side of this surgery now and can breathe a little easier.

I am thankful that Josie has healed up so well and is thriving. Look at that chub!

I am thankful that K’s health has been mostly good and we have been able to focus on Josie during this season.

I am thankful for a husband who is always in the trenches with me, who has walked through all of this beside me, and always makes burdens feel much lighter. He’s the best.

I am thankful for friends and family and even strangers who have helped carry us through this crazy year. If you are reading this, that probably means you. Thank you.

I am thankful that even though it has been a scary year and I could have lost both my best friend and my baby girl to major medical issues, they are both still here with me.

I am thankful that God is always good, even when life isn’t easy or clear–maybe especially when life isn’t easy or clear–and for the peace that provides.

And there is more, so much more…it could fill pages, books, libraries…but for tonight, this will suffice. We are so incredibly blessed and our hearts are so full. Thankful, indeed.

Josie’s big surgery!

The quick version is this, she went from this…

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to this…


in 5 days!

The long version is, of course, much longer. It was the hardest experience of our lives thus far and we really, really hope it remains the hardest experience of our lives! Surgery wasn’t until Friday morning, but things got tough around Wednesday. Dropping off the kids, getting packed up and ready to go, it all made it pretty impossible to keep ignoring what we were moving towards. I spent most of the night awake, looking at my sweet girl. It felt like Christmas Eve, but the sort of anticipation was all wrong. Very early Thursday morning we went to the hospital for pre-op, which was a marathon day, and we found out two things. First, they had changed policy the week before and we did not necessarily have to be admitted to the hospital that night. Second, the hospital was at red (meaning totally full) and they may not be able to do her surgery on Friday if an ICU bed didn’t open up. As you can imagine, that it exactly what you want to hear after packing everyone up for a week and gearing yourselves up for something major like this! After we finished with everything (x-ray, labs, nurse meeting, child life meeting, social work meeting, surgery meeting, anesthesia meeting), we were semi-free, but had to stick close to the hospital while they decided what to do with us. We went to eat and then came back, puttered around some (pumped, ect) and then went up to clinic to check for an update. They told us they didn’t have a room and we did not need to be admitted so we started looking for a hotel, so we wouldn’t have to fight through AM traffic again to be at the hospital at 6:45. We found a little extended stay place nearby that had fridges in the rooms, which was important to me as I’d been lugging a cooler bag of my milk around all day! When we got there, the fridge didn’t feel cold but I turned the dial down more and thought it would cool off. Spoiler alert, after lots of waiting it did NOT. This was the only time I started to unravel a little in this whole process, because exclusively pumping for Jo is pretty much the HARDEST job I’ve ever had and I fight for every ounce of it (and we still have to do a mix of elemental formula and breastmilk) so the thought of my milk spoiling in a cooler bag at the 24 hour mark was just the last mental straw. If we had been admitted, my milk would have been safely stored in the milk bank, as planned! But no, here we were with a broken fridge at 9pm and 2 days worth of breast milk hanging in the balance. AGH! But Josh called the front desk and they said we could store it in their fridge. WHEW!/MY HERO! With that handled, we got ready for bed, set an alarm for 2:30 since it was the last time Jo could have breastmilk/anything prior to surgery, and managed to get a little sleep. It wasn’t restful, but it was more than the night before thanks to our exhausting day.

We got up early and headed to the hospital, hoping surgery was on! In pre-op, they told us that they STILL weren’t sure if it was happening, but they’d officially call it by 8:30. Eeek! Josie was a great sport even though she probably would have liked some food by now, and she played a little and then fell asleep.


They came and told us everything was a go and it was the weirdest, most intense mixture of relief and DREAD that I’ve ever experienced. Jo was fine, though, busy making friends.


After lots of talking and paper signing, we walked Jo down the hall and handed her off and they took her (and her binky and her Duck-Duck) from there…thankfully without any pokes or anything yucky while she was awake. Handing her off was hard for us, but she didn’t mind!


We spent the next several hours in the waiting area, which was really nice. They had a kitchen and snacks and tables and couches and our best friends came up to keep us busy while we waited. It was exactly what we needed and made the time bearable. We will forever (and ever and ever) be grateful that you guys were there with us!


We were given a restaurant-style pager that went off every hour and a half or so. When it buzzed, we went to a consultation room and our surgical PA came and gave us an update on what had happened so far and what would be happening before we saw her again. It was very helpful and reassuring. Then we’d go back to playing dominos and pretending like people were not in our baby’s open chest! Three cheers for denial!

These were the updates I posted to Facebook during those hours:

8:33am She’s in the OR now.

10:25am She is doing great so far. Perfect vitals. They placed her central and arterial lines while she was under and they are probably opening her up now. They said she wins the cutest baby award.

11:18am They are in her chest now and in the process of putting her on heart-lung bypass. All is still going well. They got us a picture of her heart, like her big sister requested.

12:47pm VSD is repaired, heart is closed and restarted! Now they are putting in chest tubes, pacing wires, ect. She’s still doing well.

2:11pm Surgery is done. She did perfectly! We will see her in the ICU in 45 minutes to an hour.

And at 3:30pm, we got to see her! It was 6 hours that felt like at least 24. By midnight, I swear it had been 3 full days since I woke up.

Once everyone left, we headed to the ICU. Honestly, our ICU time is a bit of a blur. We were exhausted and didn’t want to leave our girl and it all kind of runs together. We were there for a little over 24 hours and in that time, Josh and I both got about 1.5 hours of sleep each which we got by trading off going to our Ronald McDonald house room some time between 2 1 and 6am, I think. We were running on coffee and prayers, mostly.

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Facebook tells me that she was extubated a little before 10pm  that first night and then was very unhappy for a while because we couldn’t let her eat. That was one of the hardest parts of the ICU, not being able to feed her. First she couldn’t eat because it was too close to exubation and then was only allowed 2 ounces every 3 hours because of fluid restrictions. It made for an unhappy Jo. She was also obviously uncomfortable after surgery and we couldn’t comfort her like she was used to and then we had to withhold food on top of it. But the following evening, I finally got to hold her!



We were moved to a different ICU room because Josie was ready to be on the floor, but they didn’t have room. And shortly after that, a room opened up so we went down to the regular floor. Yay! Do you know what regular rooms have?? A bed for parents! No more choosing sleep or being with our girl! We left her in a crib that first night, but it was a mistake. We took turns hanging off the edge of it all night to give our co-sleeper some comfort, so the next night when we got moved again, I asked for a big bed for her and signed the co-sleeping waiver and we were FINALLY in a position to get some real sleep! On the floor, they also lifted her fluid restrictions so she was finally satisfied and not starving all the time! Yay! Things moved pretty well from that point on.


Lets jump back to the beginning of recovery for a minute. She was hooked up to A LOT of stuff at first; she was intubated and on a ventilator, had an NG tube to keep her tummy empty, two peripheral IVs, 1 arterial line, 1 central line, chest tube, pacing wires, plus regular monitoring stuff. She was on several IV medications at first.


But Josie had a pretty steady road of recovery and dropped things quickly. First, she was extubated. The only problem there was she experienced some stridor and required a racemic epi nebulizer treatment and a round of steroids for the next 24 hours. Later, she had a beside laryngoscope and they discovered she has a paralyzed vocal cord. It may have been pre-existing as she has experience stridor before or it could have been caused by the surgery or intubation. We have to follow up with ENT about it and are having to watch her for signs of airway issues and aspiration. Intubation was also pretty rough on her poor little nose.


After extubation, she was on O2 for a while and then dropped that. You can see her chest tube here and the pacing wires (in case she had rhythm issues) are under the gauze.


Then they pulled her arterial line…

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Then the chest tube and pacing wires came out…


And the last things to go were her peripheral IVs right before we were discharged! We really could not have hoped for an easier/better recovery for her in the hospital. It was a busy time…labs, chest x-rays, laryngoscope, echo, pulling lines and such. Seems like things were happening every day and we never had a day where we were just sitting and waiting, our girl just kept on knocking down those milestones and then we were free!

Some of my favorite moments were these:

First finger squeezes in the ICU that first night while she was still intubated and sedated…


First open eyes in the ICU, probably 24 hours or so after she was out of surgery…


And first SMILES, at 3 days post-op!


Each of them meant that our sweet girl was coming back to us more and more! ♥

Since we’ve been home, she has continued to do well, but is somewhat frustrated with her limitations. At 6 months, the wider world has just really opened up to her and now it all seems slightly out of reach. It has been a very demanding and hands-on phase of parenting for Josh and I as we try to keep her happy and entertained within her limits. The first couple of days at home, she did NOT nap, which compounded things a bit. Thankfully, naps are back! While she is allowed to do whatever she can comfortably do herself, she is tentative with things like rolling over, but laying on her back is NOT very fun since she knows there is more to life! A lot of fun things we do are off-limits because of the way we have to hold her. No fun lifts over the head or knee bouncing or standing in our laps. I can’t manage to put her in or take her out of her stander or Bumbo with the approved holding position so that has to wait for Josh. Life is just different than she is used to and she doesn’t really understand why, I’m sure. But we are already 1.5 weeks post-op so only 4.5 more to go before she can get back to normal! Yesterday her chest tube stitch was removed so now baths are back on the list! Yay! We are still also on germ-restriction until the 6 weeks is up and need to be extra careful now that she also has airway issues, so it means a lot of time stuck in the house which is only so interesting (for all of us, LOL!). She seems to be adjusting a bit more the past couple of days, though. Regardless of the little challenges, we are so thankful she is healing well and hope it continues! The challenging parts will be short-lived and we are so thankful that our girl came through this huge surgery so successfully. We’re not quite out of the woods yet, but we can see the light in the distance now! We are so thankful for all the support and prayers and all the little and big things people have done for us along the way. None of it has gone unnoticed even if we haven’t gotten around to making official thank yous just yet!

Here she is yesterday, happy and up half a pound since Friday! Having a properly functioning heart really makes growing easier! So, so, sooooo thankful our precious girl seems to be thriving now!!!


Food We CAN Eat!

I’m putting this together for people who might want to bring us food either while we are in the hospital with Josie or after we get home, because with our dietary restrictions it can be a tricky thing to do! I wish we were low maintenance!!


Jason’s Deli, Pei Wei, PF Chang’s, Cheesecake Factory, Ruggles Green, Chili’s, Smashburger, Carl’s Jr, Baba Yega, Hungry’s, and most Mexican restaurants


General tips: 

*If something calls for onions, we sub onion powder.

*If something calls for butter, we use Earth Balance soy-free (found at most grocers, 

*For tortillas, we use corn or Udi’s gluten free (found in freezer section at Target/HEB,

*For bread, we use Udi’s gluten free (found in freezer section at most grocers,

* For breadcrumbs, we use Ian’s panko ( Not all varieties are dairy-free, but they are labeled really clearly. We find them at Kroger.

*For a thickener, we use cornstarch.

Mexican crock pot chicken (just read the seasoning packets to avoid milk/gluten, we use McCormick fajita seasoning):

Meatloaf and Mashed Potatoes (just use regular mayo):

Pineapple and chicken kabobs (use GF soy sauce):

Sweet/Spicy chicken:

Italian chicken and potatoes:

3 frozen chicken breasts, some cubed white or red potatoes, 1 bottle of Italian dressing (read label to avoid dairy/gluten), put in crock pot on high for 4 hours.

Easy Meals, no recipes:

Sloppy Joes: Manwich can, beef, Udi’s bread, tater tots

Tacos: just check seasoning for gluten/milk

Spaghetti: use GF pasta and sauce that is gluten/dairy-free

Chicken nuggets: Simply Balanced gluten-free from Target ( or Applegate gluten-free nuggets (

Hopefully that helps! If you are uncertain if an ingredient is safe, you can always snap a picture of the label and text/FB it to me! :)

Gluten-free/Dairy-free Substitution Awards

I have been gluten-free for several years for my own health reasons and now I’m also dairy-free because of Josie’s severe dairy allergy. People like to ask me, “What CAN you eat??” Heck, I ask myself the same thing sometimes! Fortunately, I have found some satisfying subsitutes for my favorites…for the most part these are even approved by my family members who can eat normal people food! I’ve come across others who are facing elimination diets and wanted to share what I’ve learned so far in case I makes things easier.

Best Ice Cream Substitute:
Hands down, the winner is Blue Bunny almond milk ice cream. It is soft and creamy, way better than coconut-based ice creams which tend to be thin and icy. Good stuff! 

Best Pizza Substitute:

Daiya frozen pizza is the winner here. I am not a big veggie fan so I’ve only tried the cheeze lover variety, but it is good. I don’t know what kind of alchemy they use to make a GF/DF pizza work, but I’m glad someone figured it out!

Best Packaged Cookies:

Cybele’s Free To Eat chocolate chip cookies are very yummy! Soft and not crumbly with a good flavor.

Best Hamburger:

This one is a toss up, as both Smashburger and Cheesecake Factory have very respectable GF/DF options, just make sure to stress NO BUTTER when ordering. I think the avocado club at Smashburger might have a slight edge because avocado does a good job of replacing the creaminess that is missing without cheese. Oh, cheese, I miss you.

Best Fast Food options:

My family likes to eat out so this has been one of the harder parts of food allergies. We frequent Wendy’s where I get a bunless grilled chicken sandwich, Carl’s Jr where a I get a “low carb style” lettuce wrapped burger, Chick-fil-a where I get grilled nuggets, PeiWei where I get the GF spicy chicken or shrimp. Everyone is pretty sick of these options already, but at least they have a whole menu to choose from!

Best Baked Goods:

King Arthur GF brownies prepared with oil are the best baked good I’ve eaten since going GF/DF. I tried Pamela’s GF/DF brownies, but they were not nearly as good…sort of grainy even when warm and gooey. King Arthur is perfect.

Milk substitute:

Almond milk. I really expected to prefer coconut milk, but it is just too thin. I am not a milk drinker, so I only use it in other things (cereal, coffee), but my go to choice is unsweetened original almond milk.

Best Coffee On The Go:

Soy latte. I used to be a mocha girl, but now I’m a soy latte. Ordering it makes me feel like I’m pretending to be someone else, but it is surprisingly tasty. Many babies with dairy allergies are also sensitive to soy, so I don’t go crazy with soy stuff, but thus far Jo has been fine with it. 

Best Coffee At Home:

Lots of options here that are equally good. 1 tbsp coconut oil tossed into the blender with your coffee for a few seconds is great. Soy or almond milk creamers are good. Coconut milk creamers aren’t creamy.  Boo. (Don’t be fooled by “non-dairy” creamers, they do contain milk protein which is what triggers the allergic reactions.) Almond milk itself works, too, it just isn’t as creamy as the other options.

Best Mashed Potatoes: With dairy, without dairy, these are the best mashed potatoes I’ve ever had! We use regular mayo since we are not vegan.

Best Donuts:

Kinnickinnick frozen cinnamon and sugar donuts. YUM. These are so good that Josh will steal them.

Best Protein Bar:

Ugh, eliminating gluten and dairy makes finding a good protein bar tough! I don’t always have time to eat an actual meal, so I like to have bars to fall back on, especially on the go when there may not be a safe option around. The best option I’ve found are KIND bars, the kind with nuts. They usually run about 7g of protein, which isn’t a ton, but they are tasty and will buy you some time.

Best Buttter Substitute:

Earth Balance soy-free. Honestly, I haven’t tried their other varieties because this one was recommended to me and it fit the bill.

That is all I can think of right now, but if there is something not mention here that you are looking for, please ask! I’ll do a follow up post with meal ideas soon…whatever soon means for someone with a homeschooled kid with mito and a baby with a major heart defect who will be having open heart surgery soon! 😉 And please forgive any typos or errors, I wrote this on my iPhone in the dark next to a sleeping baby in between stirrings…no proofreading happening here!

New Normals

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Life has changed so much since Josie’s diagnoses (VSD, congestive heart failure, failure to thrive, and milk protein allergy…a diagnosis for every month of life so far)! It is definitely more complicated logistically (more on that later), but actually getting … Continue reading


We were released from the hospital on Friday and it is SO wonderful to be home. Josie is so different now, it is almost like one baby went into the hospital and another came out. Before she was hospitalized, she was nursing almost non-stop and everything else happened in these little 5-15 minute breaks where she either fell asleep briefly or was awake and happy and played with us for a bit…then back to nursing. I know everyone says they nurse their newborn non-stop, but seriously, there were many days when Josh came home and I told him that she was attached to me all day with a COLLECTIVE break time of 30 minutes for the whole day. She nursed A LOT. Everything else was much further down the list. Poor baby was working so incredibly hard to barely break even nutritionally that she COULDN’T do anything else. But somehow she was still so happy! In the hospital, we used a combination of timed feeds and the NG tube to teach her what a full belly was and transition her to a more “normal” feeding schedule and while we really chafed under the restrictions initially (feeding schedules, boo!), it has been really good for her overall and we allowed her to let her adjust it to her natural rhythms once she was over that initial hump. She eats roughly 3 ounces of fortified breastmilk every 2.5 hours during the day and then at night we set an alarm to give her a couple of “dream feeds” every 4 hours (earlier, if she stirs on her own), which she willingly takes. As a result, she now spends time playing before and after her bottles and lets us know when she wants to nap and sleeps for decent chunks of time! She has routines and preferences beyond “I’M STARVING, FEED ME!” Yay!

A lot of things have changed across the board. We went from nursing to pumping/bottles feeding with fortified breast milk with a couple of comfort nursings here and there (but we have to keep them short and limited because she has to work so hard at it and will get sweaty and fatigued). While I do miss nursing, I know this is what is best for her. We went from feeding on (constant) demand to a semi-scheduled feeding routine that we have to keep notes on. We went from cloth diapers to disposables (because with the formula fortification it requires an extra step to cleaning dirty diapers that I don’t currently have time for) that we are weighing for ins/outs. We went from nursing on and off all night to setting alarms to heat up milk and give bottles (oh my gosh, nursing is so much easier, especially in the middle of the night!). Her bottles are finicky so we have to watch the nipple alignment the whole time she is eating. We’ve also added in a strict medication schedule that we have alarms set for; 9am, 1pm, 5pm, 9pm; so between meds and night feeds we are waking up (REALLY waking up) three times a night now. YAWN! We’ll also be going to weight checks frequently; every couple of days at the birth center, once a week at the pediatrician, and once every two weeks at the cardiologist (where she’ll also be getting chest x-rays to keep an eye on her lungs and heart). It is very, very different, but it is what she needs so that’s what we’re doing!

Another thing that is different is that we now have to be very careful with Josie’s health and treat her like an immunosuppresed baby because her heart will not handle illness very well. We have to avoid crowded places and people who are or MIGHT be sick. So if you are sick or might be sick or have been around people who have been sick, PLEASE keep your distance. “I think it is just allergies.” is not sufficient in this case. We will likely be avoiding large gatherings (even family!) and places where there are kiddos, just because of the high rate of infection and snotty noses and slobbery hands. It won’t be easy, but again, it is what is best for Josie so it is what we will do! We have to keep this sweet baby healthy and growing so she’ll be ready for surgery when the time comes!

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Look who is three months old today!

PS: If you have any exclusive pumping tips, please share! It is going to be tricky pumping, feeding, and taking care of Josie when Josh goes back to work so maximum output in fewer pump sessions is our goal.

Josie’s Heart

Last Friday, Josie had her first visit with the pediatrician. Her first couple of check-ups were done by our midwives, first at our house and then at the birth center, so we didn’t need to the see the pediatrician until it was time for vaccinations. While at the appointment, the doctor heard a heart murmur. At first she said that it sounded innocent, but as she listened she decided to order an echocardiogram because Josie has also been having difficulty feeding and gaining weight. On Tuesday, Josh and I took her for her echo and Josie was so well-behaved for it, but after the test the tech told me, “If you don’t hear from your pediatrician in the next couple of hours, go ahead and call her.” I’ve been through a billion tests with K and NEVER been told that, so when we got in the car I told Josh I didn’t think the results were going to be good. We headed back towards home and stopped at Sonic to grab lunch and as soon as we pulled in, the pediatrician called and said we needed to go to the ER immediately and would most likely be admitted to cardiology. Josie has a large VSD (hole in her heart) with significant shunting (blood going the wrong direction, making her heart work way too hard). So we went by the house to grab a few things and headed to the hospital.

Once here, we were taken back pretty quickly and she had an EKG and chest x-ray done, and had labs drawn and IV placement was attempted. Cardiology came down and explained her heart defect, and that her heart is also enlarged and there was fluid on her lungs from the excessive work her heart had been doing (congestive heart failure). They went over the symptoms of her VSD: constantly feeding, falling asleep quickly when eating but not staying asleep very long before resuming feeding, sweating while feeding, fast breathing, difficulty growing and gaining appropriate weight. She had all of them, which we knew from Googling them after hearing about her murmur, so it wasn’t a complete surprise, but the symptoms also have totally innocent explanations, too. People say that newborns nurse a lot and not to pay attention to the interval between feeds. Babies get sleepy when eating. Sometimes babies get sweaty when nursing from the shared body heat. Babies breathe quicker than big people. She has had some latching difficulties from birth, so we thought the weight gain issues were due to poor milk transfer. But nope. She’s had a large hole in her heart all along, making it impossible for her to feed well enough to get full, thus the constant feeding. And the sweating. And the drowsiness. And the lack of actual naps. And the lack of weight gain. And the signs of inefficient milk transfer. It was like she was always running a marathon and trying to eat on top of that. So we are in the hospital now, trying to get her to gain weight. If she can start gaining weight, they are going to let us go home and let her continue to grow and get stronger for a couple of months before going in to close the hole surgically. If she can’t start gaining, they’ll have to repair it sooner. Right now she needs a feeding tube to get in her feeds (they let her eat for 15 minutes and whatever she hasn’t finished at that point goes in her NG tube), but they hope she will gain strength and be able to take them orally before we go home. They’ve given her meds to draw the fluid build-up out of her lungs and they are much better, but she is still struggling a lot with feeding. She isn’t supposed to nurse anymore for now because it takes more work than a bottle feed and they can’t track her calories and intake, so I’m pumping and they are fortifying my milk to make it more calories per ounce. We are SO thankful we found a bottle she can take recently, I can’t imagine trying to do all that trial and error while we are inpatient! She also likes her binky a lot more now, probably because she misses nursing, so we are thankful she’s accepting that substitute.

I know people are curious about why this wasn’t discovered earlier. In part, it may be due to the delayed initial pediatrician visit, but larger holes are quieter and more difficult to detect…and often these are missed even at pediatrician visits until 6 or 8 weeks of life. If she had been born in the hospital, maybe they would have caught it, but maybe not. She passed her screening test for congenital heart defects at birth because this type of hole does not effect oxygenation levels. I don’t know that it would have been caught had we done things differently, but we are still SO thankful for her gentle entrance into the world and the months we got to spend at home before diving into all of this and wouldn’t change any of it. The symptoms she’s had since birth could also have been attributed to other things, so the detection of the murmur and the echo were the keys to catching it and thankfully it was caught. Hopefully she will start showing some gains and we will get to go home again in a few days! People have also asked about the big kids. They are handling it well. N has been a big help and now he’s spending a week or so with his best friend, and K is with my mom and had VBS and a couple other things to distract her this week. It will be very nice when we are all home together again! We just need our little Jo to grow so that can happen.


Year One

K and I finished her first year of homeschooling a few weeks ago and I think it was a success! Although her health was pretty good for the most part, she still had enough issues that it made me very thankful not to have to wake her up early and shoo her out the door when she wasn’t feeling her best. She had a nasty respiratory infection back in the fall, a lot of GI issues during the winter, and bouts of pain that seemed to come and go…but being out of school meant that she did not really acquire any contagious infections this year which was awesome! For her health, homeschooling was definitely a win!

 I feel like she learned a lot this year, too. The hardest parts were long division and two digit multiplication, but we survived! Otherwise, it was pretty smooth sailing. She is such a smart kid and strong reader, so that really made most of school very easy for her. It also made it possible for her to continue working when I was busy with Josephine at the end of the year.

I do wish we had been able to do more out of the house/social activities this year, like museum classes and field trips, but with me being pregnant (nausea and vomiting in the fall/due in the spring), it was hard to sign up for much! She is such a social kid that I know she would love interacting with a wider world of people, so hopefully next year we will be able to do a bit more in that arena. We did a few things this year; farm field trip, the Nutcracker, Valentine’s Party with other homeschooling friends, but there are so many available opportunities for her to explore!

I interviewed K about her year and these were her answers:

Favorite Continent(s): Asia and Australia

Favorite Ecosystem: Tundra

Favorite Subject: Reading

Biggest Challenge: Math/2 digit multiplication

Favorite Part of Science: Order Lepidoptera in Flying Creatures

Favorite Part of Bible: Windows on the World (a study of differen cultures/religions)

Favorite Part of Math: Nothing/Addition, if forced to pick something

Favorite Part of Geography: Pretend travels

Favorite Part of Art: Designing a house

Favorite Part of LA/Spelling: Adjectives

What are you looking forward to next year: Art and Egypt/the pyramids

This year our main curriculum was geography centered, next year it will be focused on early history, up to the Greeks. We are going to keep using Teaching Textbooks for math and Apologia for extra science (she picked Chemistry and Physics, eek!), but I think we may try something new for LA. Overall, I’m really pleased with how our year went, even though my pregnancy and Josephine’s arrival complicated things just a bit, and we are looking forward to next year…after we enjoy a nice long lazy summer!

Josie’s Birth Story

Josie is two weeks old now, so I figure it is about time to post her birth story. It has been on my to do list, but getting sufficient time where I am not holding or nursing this sweet little baby girl has made it a challenge…but I definitely wouldn’t trade this out for more free time! Since this is a birth story, don’t keep reading if you don’t want to know birth details. ;)


First, I’m going to backtrack a bit. On Wednesday the 8th, I went for a biophysical profile ultrasound and had a follow up visit with the midwife. Everything looked great, but we found out that if I didn’t have the baby by the following Tuesday, we’d have to get transferred over to OB care which we REALLY didn’t want. We weren’t planning on having my membranes stripped, but since we were in a time crunch we went ahead and had that done at my appointment. It gave me some contractions here and there and eventually they settled into a regular pattern and I was up part of the night that night timing them, but they eventually tapered off. The same thing happened the following night, but again, they tapered off. Then on Friday morning, my water broke! That was a new experience, didn’t happen with either of the other kiddos. This started a second clock, because they really don’t like you to go more than 48 hours without delivering once your water has broken. Josh came home early that day and we spent the day trying to encourage things to move along with walking and clary sage oil, but Friday was a pretty calm day. The midwife came and checked on me and Little Duck that evening and we were both doing great! Once night hit, I started having some regular contractions and we were up all night timing them, but again, they tapered off around 4am and we slept for a couple of hours. The midwife gave us the morning to try to get things moving along again, but it just wasn’t quite happening so we went in to have a Cook catheter placed to help me efface and dilate. Josh got to be the assistant and fill the balloons. He was a good nurse. Basically, the catheter puts pressure on both sides of the cervix and irritates the uterus into contracting and comes out once you hit 6cm. It didn’t take too long for contractions to pick up and by 4pm we were timing them again. We went back to the birth center at 8:30 to have the catheter checked, but it was still snugly in there so they advised us to go walking when we got back home. I was having some pretty strong contractions, so we only made it a few houses down the block (with lots of stopping to wait out contractions) before we headed back home. It seemed like a bad idea to be loitering in front of people’s houses in the dark and I couldn’t make it more than a few steps before I had to stop again. I went to the bathroom when we got back and BOOM! the catheter was out. We let the midwife know and she said we were fine to keep laboring at home until we felt like things were getting close to delivery. So, that’s what we did! We were both pretty tired from the lack of sleep the previous nights and I was unable to lay down at all that day because the contractions were extremely painful if I did, so I mostly hung out on the birth ball which was the most comfortable place to be…but we noticed things would slow down a little if I sat too long, so Josh would watch the clock and remind me to stand and walk every 4-5 minutes if a contraction hadn’t started up. Around 10 or 10:30, I went ahead and took a shower to be ready for when we went in and pretty soon after, I started feeling a little queasy with some of the contractions so we texted the midwife and decided to go in around 11:30 or so.


When we got to the birth center, everything was all calm and ready for us and we basically just continued to labor independently (on the birth ball at first and then in the tub) with our midwife quietly supervising until I hit transition and then both midwives came to help. This labor was definitely the easiest/most pleasant out of the three, even though I had pain medication with the other two and none this time around. The contractions were definitely strong, but I never felt like they were out of control or unbearable…intense, yes! But being free to move through them in a way that relieved a bit of that rather than being stuck in a bed made a huge difference and Josh was great at reminding me to relax and breathe through the rough ones towards the end. Being able to stay at home so long and do what we wanted (which was mainly watch The Office) was wonderful, too. Then there was transition, which is always so much “fun”, and I was extremely nauseated and started throwing up. It was a glamorous time…contractions, vomiting…so many wonderful things happening at once! However, the nausea subsided once I started pushing. Usually pushing is a super quick process for me…a few pushes and we’re done! But this time, it didn’t happen like that. I thought it might be because I was in the water, so we moved to the bed in a kneeling position, but things still didn’t move forward as quickly as I wanted and MAN, was I exhausted and therefore fighting with a little case of the “I can’t.”s, so I asked to lay down and after some more pushing in a side-lying position…she was here! Josh said I probably pushed for 45 minutes, but it felt longer than that in the moment. She was born with her right hand out first ahead of her head and that is what made things more challenging in that stage. She also had the cord wrapped around her neck twice, but they were so great at pacing me through the pushing once she was emerging and just quickly and easily unwound it. They said it was probably a good thing since my water had broken, it kept it from prolapsing (coming out before her) and causing more problems. The pacing also helped her get her without causing any tearing or that sort of thing. Yay! Once she her hand, head, and shoulders were out, I was able reach down and grab her and pull her up to my chest and it was a perfect moment. They had Josh look to see gender and SURPRISE! She was a girl. I said, “Katie was RIGHT!!” And that is how we met our Josephine.

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She was so quiet and alert and definitely interested in nursing, and we just relaxed together while she stayed connected to the placenta for a good hour or so…such a sweet time! I wish the other kids’ births had been as calm and gentle as Josie’s was, we didn’t get to enjoy such moments at the hospital! Josh cut the cord, after sufficient time had passed and it was done pulsing. The midwife brought me a snack (it was the best orange I’ve ever eaten, LOL!) and some water somewhere in there, too. After a while, they weighed and measured her (7 pounds 1 ounce, 20 inches) and cleaned her up a little and Josh got to hold and rock her a bit. She was born at 2:45am and they let us go home around 6am. It was wonderful! The whole experience was perfect and if we ever have another baby, we will DEFINITELY go this route again. It was so different than an OB managed pregnancy/birth…so calm and laid back and NORMAL. Even surprising things, like my water breaking and the delay before labor started and her hand and the cord, were handled so calmly and efficiently. I feel like medically-managed pregnancies and deliveries are treated like crises until proven otherwise, and this was the opposite of that. It was obviously hard work, labor/birth always is no matter how you do it, but it was a fantastic experience and I would not change any of it! We are so thankful for all the midwives at Bay Area Birth Center for taking care of us throughout the pregnancy, and especially appreciative of Stephanie and Jackie who helped us bring our precious girl into the world! We will always remember it fondly.

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